Strange sensation recently, like the tape has run out and I am jamming on my own time. I first felt it when sick a few weeks ago and spent a lot of time lying on the floor and assumed of course that I was dying. I have got to a point where I feel I have fulfilled all major karmic duties like having kids and can spend the rest of my life drinking tea and making music and writing. When I was younger I thought that life would be over at age 28, or 33. Well its not over but that juvenile fear and urgency has gone from it.